I planned to do this two weeks ago, but i kept putting it off cos of other stuff, and now here's my resolution and all those things I was supposed to write for the new year. Haha.

2005 passed very quickly for me, and according to several other people, it did for them too. Ginnette asked me if anything significant or big happened to me last yr, and frankly speaking, I cannot really think of any. Perhaps not nothing, cos I did get baptised after all. Haha. And that was really a blessing. But other than that.. maybe I do not count my blessings, that's all. Cos I'm sure I am blessed. But I learnt a lot last year.

I learnt that the people you think you know best are not as they seem. I learnt that I must start treating my friends better without expecting anything from them. Only that will make me happy.

And most importantly of all, I learnt that people always hide things from each other, consciously or unconsciously, deliberately or inadvertently, for whatever reasons, no matter your relationship. Why? Everybody has secrets, things you do not want to let others know, even your closest friend. But why is there a need for secrets? For self-preservation? Or is it something else? I don't deny that I do keep a lot of things from my friends and people around me. And I do wonder why. I guess, it's a matter of trust. I .. do not trust the people around me, so I guess I can't expect them to trust me too. Do unto others what you would have them do to you. Right? So I guess I deserve all that.

I'm still harping on that incident last mth, and I might never forget it. Not because I'm still feeling bitter, but because it was a lesson to me.

Okay, resolutions. I didn't make them in the past because I know I'll nv keep them, so what's the use? Haha. But for the sake of making resolutions, I shall make them.

First of all, is to stay strong in my faith.
Secondly, to grab opportunities when they arise.
Thirdly, to give without expecting.
Last of all, to learn to trust.

- I hope you read this -